Truth Tuesday: Love Dont Live Here No More

Hello everyone it is Tuesday and it is time for me to spill my guts out to you guys. I just got back home from work and even though I am thankful to have job in todays economy, I AM SO HAPPY TO BE HOME!!! Sometimes I think "ooooohhhh if only I had a suga daddy" but then I think 1. I'm too independent for that ish, 2. I don't want a man to have that much control over me, 3. I would get soooooo bored just staying home...so suga daddy is completely out of the question. So life update I am like really single now. I was in one of those kinds, sorta, not really single relationships but now its really done (I think, No it really is.) I said what I really felt in my heart and he decided to leave the situation which is what needed to be done anyway. I have learned that it doesn't matter how much you love someday or whatever reason they give you about why they can't be with you, if your unhappy, your unhappy. I never been the type of girl to hide my emotions ever, maybe its the cancer in me, but when something is hurting me or just doesn't feel right I have to speak my mind. It sometimes takes me a while because I always fear that the person will leave but holding it in only makes things worst. I feel honestly like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. When I was "with" this person I always kept asking myself when will I become a priority. When you don't understand why it gives you an insecurity about your self, like what am I doing wrong. The answer, I figured out, is that you shouldn't have to keep asking someone to make you priority! As adults we all have issues, jobs, children, etc....if you really love someone you just make the time for that person, even if its for a few minutes, 1 hour, once a week, whatever the case may be. You should never give room for the next person to come and "move in." I think I am going to chill on the search for love, hopefully the person I am suppose to be with will come find me (don't wait too long lol). There is a lot of things that I want to change in my life and I can't expect a man to have his ish together when I don't have my ish together. Other then that, life keeps moving on. I'm saving, saving , saving which is soooo hard to do. Sometimes I just want to blow the whole thing on clothes, trips and food to be really honest with but then I hear the sweet sound of my mothers voice and I slap myself in the face and say "GET OVER IT, YOUR MOVING!" Also I really want to experience having my own place, I have had a roommate, which wasn't that bad in the BEIGNING but never completely on my own so I am really looking forward to that :) So I hope you like this truth I'm giving you; please FOLLOW, LIKE AND SHARE :) Also I will be posting a video THIS WENESDAY on my YOU TUBE channel A.J MARIE so please go like in subscribe to that :)  One of the major things I want to change in my life is my HEATH! so I will be documenting my whole weight lost journey on you tube so please, please, please go check that out. Help me stay motivated and hopefully I can motivate someone else :) Thank you for reading!!!!