Truth Tuesday: The Stress Is Too Real

I think I need to call today tired Tuesday. I have been going through it this week since Aunt Flo came to visit, with her unwelcomed a&$#. All I wanna do is eat chocolate and sleep. Anyway I have been feeling stressed :(. As I'm sure most of you understand when you have no choice but to live back home with your parents your life changes. I have been in this situation for about 2 1/2 years and I'm telling you, I have been feeling like I have went so many steps backwards. This situation has become a major stress factor in my life and even though I am working towards getting my own place, it takes awhile to save. Also saving is becoming a issue because every time you try to put something away you realize that you need to take it back out because you need something or a holiday/birthday is coming up. Like for example completely didn't know when Father's Day was so of course guess who had to get a gift??? To add to everything it falls on the week that I got get paid, how great is that :/. Nnow I'm sure your saying "oooohhh they will understand you don't have it this week well your WRONG I'll never hear the end of this ish. Sometimes people don't understand that you have savings for a reason. They think because you have it, that you always have money and you can pick from it anytime you want to, THERE CALLED SAVINGS, I'M TRYING TO SAVE !!!Also I give money to my mom which is like a rent but it not as much but sometimes (All The Time) I wish I could keep my damn money. I love my mom to death and even like my step dad (sometimes) but I feel like I'm a little kid again. I understand that it is their house their rules but sometimes I just wanna smack them around a little bit (I would never hit my parents lol.) I could complain all day but I wont, only I can get myself out of this situation and I will continue to do so. Other than that not much is going on but....... I am starting back up my YOU TUBE again!! I haven't done a You Tube video in about a year but I want to get it started back up again so if your reading this please go check out my youtube channel A.J Marie https://www.youtube.com/user/phlajones. I am still a freshman to the blogging game so please don't make fun of the camera quality lol. I will be posting Wednesday, Friday and Saturday, please show some love and support. I am doing a video tomorrow, a Hair Store Shopping Haul!!! Please Check It Out, Like, Subscribe and thank you so much for reading this today :) Happy tired Tuesday!!!

Truth Tuesday: My Opinion On Relationships

So its Tuesday and a lot is on my mind. I am a single women. I'm not looking because for one I'm still holding on to my past and honestly I have been scared because dating for me hasn't been the best experience. Literally I have started to talk to someone and the second day something sexual comes up or they were way to aggressive (a personal turn off). Now we're all adults (hopefully) and know that sex is one important part of a relationship so eventually there is lots of loving to be made but when you are meeting someone for the first time, in my opinion, if your really interested in them and want to eventually be in a relationship you want to get to know a little bit of who they are first. I'm using "people" because this applies to men & women. A lot of people don't want to take this step because their not interested in a relationship but shouldn't they be up front about that in the beginning. Some don't say anything because they selfishly want to have sex with that person and are afraid the truth will turn them away. Some are very honest but the other person foolishly thinks they can change their minds about relationships (once in a blue moon this actually happens but you should never think you can change a persons way of thinking.) It's  selfish to not be up front because some, including myself, sex is emotional and we can become very attached and hurt if it doesn't go in the relationship direction. That's why I personal try to avoid these type of situations. It seems that a lot of people have stop believing in things like love, relationships, dating and marriage. I think this comes from either a personal issue with the whole idea, feeling a since of being "trapped", or have seen really bad examples of relationships and marriage and have opted out. Strangely enough most of the same people are wanting/willing to make a baby with the same person they don't want to commit to...can somebody ANYBODY explain that one to me. This is sooooo disappointing to people like me who are still hopeless romantics. I have seen terrible examples of relationships/marriages and personally haven't been in the best relationships in the world but I still believe in happily ever after. I love when I see a couple that are not only lovers but best friends, that can argue but make up and say I love you after, couples that wouldn't dare cheat because they know there is no one else they rather be with. I know relationships aren't perfect but they can be perfect to you in your partner. I know it involves a lot of comprise,trust and commutation (just to name a few) and I think when you both agree to that your off to a great start and have an amazing future ahead of you. I would love to grow old and cranky with someone. Maybe one day,when I let go of my own past, a man will come my way (not too aggressively lol) that still believes in the things I do....I hope this wasn't too long lol. Thank you for taking the time to read this and tell me your thoughts on relationships in the comments below!!!

Truth Tuesday: Self Reflection

Hey everyone hope your having a good day :) I am so tired. Work is not hard, I just rather sometimes be in my bed. I'm sure you all can relate. So what's been going on with me??? Well If you have read my blogs before everything in my personal life is still the same, I am still single :( But I have realized (just today lol) that maybe I should take this time and work on getting myself together. I'm not a complete reck but there are things I want to work on like my heath (the healthy lifestyle struggle is real) and just stuff, at almost 30, I feel I should have by now. Still sucks to be alone but I have time to be in a happy and healthy relationship; Bae Is Out There Somewhere! On a sad note my grandmother passed away this Saturday. She was really sick for a long time and even though I am sad, I'm happy she doesn't have to suffer anymore. When someone passes it always makes you think about your own life. In my life I have avoided a lot of things that made me uncomfortable; I have even avoided people. If I didn't see a person in a long time or meet someone new I wouldn't make the effort to call or to keep in contact with them. I would feel weird and uncomfortable because I didn't know them and/or too much time went pass. I realized by doing that "being anti-social" I have missed out on a lot of good times, getting closer to family members and possible good friends. I always say to my self " If I just...." Life is too short to live with regrets and I have to try and do things that are out of my comfort zone, We ALL Should!!!(if your not already.) So on that note I'm going to end this blog, hope everyone is living life without regrets:) R.I.P grandma.

Truth Tuesday: Life is too short.

Sorry this is late, it's just been one of those days. Being a women sucks sometimes. Every month we get a visit from the devil and along with it comes cramps, acne, cravings, unnecessary emotions and fatigue. If only men could experience this; oh what a world it would be.....anyway I heard some sad news about my grandma. I won't go that deep into it but my grandma has Alzheimer's disease;and doesn't have long too live. When you are going to loose or have lost somebody regardless of your relationship it still holds a great sadness. It also reminds you that life is too short to let it just past bye. Sometimes I have stayed away from things and people because of fear. Its not a easy thing to do for a introvert like me but I will try my best to break out of this. Life is short and filled with ups,downs, good and bad experiences. It makes us who we are. Everything we go through in life makes us stronger people. Live life is the moral to this entry, try to make the best of each day.